When will victims of abuse stop being traffic’d

I hired a lawyer in 2019 to represent me in my battle against the Catholic Church and Uncle Ted. I soon found out that the esteemed lawyer is not liscenced to practice his craft in NY, NJ, CA. He had to find suitable firms to take my case.

Fast forward to November 2022. The esteeemed lawyer and his firm are scrambling to find extra nickels and dimes as the Elitists, they voted for, are stealing their once earned cash. You reap what you sow~? Not to mention the millions lost to defemation and other lost cases. The Esteemed lawyer’s firm has been reduced to just 1 client. How is he ever going to pay his team without cash flow?

Mr. Esteemed lawyer never had much of a plan for representing me. He always depended on others to find the evidence and when asked for his next procedure and goal? He never had any. So now he sits and waits for his own demise. No plan – no action – no results.

Mr Esteemed Lawyer is trafficing me to other firms across the country – how can this be legal?


31 years 3 days


At this season of Thanksgiving, let us pause for those who are living without Jesus Christ.  When a life is lived without God’s Good Grace, it becomes cold, stagnant and dull.  We do the same actions, eat the same food, stumble the same process each day and believe all that is bad in the world is someone else’s fault. We complain, but do nothing.  Even our prayers are spoken without thought or conviction.  Our dreams are dull or full of materialistic choices.  Let us each stand and rejoice in all the best efforts we have bestowed on others.  

We must change our daily actions to include quiet time in reflection of all that makes us better people.  Not better deliverers of material items – anyone can provide this.  We must better deliver our irreplaceable items:   our time, affection and approval for others.  

As a child, I always yearned for the attention of my parents, siblings, guardians, coaches and teachers.  “It” was not always there for me…   Was I looking in the wrong spaces? Not hearing their words?  Was I too immature to listen?  Had I missed the lesson to receive the grace of God?   No~! I was not there to hear, feel and enjoy God’s words spoken through others. I was cut off by my own weakness.  I was impeded to the Grace of God.

In my early years. My immature mind was shattered by a man who needed me to be with him.  The devil has very little trouble with those who don’t believe in God. The devils are already on his side.  This Devilish man Impeded my path to Christ.  Unbeknownst to me, I lived many years in the shadows of darkness until the lid closed down on me completely.  I was cut off from God’s Holy Grace.  I lived in great sin until a person on earth who loved me so unconditionally, died, rose to heaven, returned to me and changed me forever. My great saint came to save me 111991.

“Unless God Almighty sends to this world a great saint we cannot expect deliverance from the spirit of evil.  Why a saint?  Because the rest of us are too close to our times…The world will not be saved by anyone living in it now, but by someone lifted up from it.”  

Archbishop Fulton J. Sheen

I was told by my siblings how great my father’s love was for me.  It was then I knew my father was called by Christ to save me from the devil’s grip.   For the love of my father is forever ingrained in my heart.  It is His Love I give to others.  Someday, I may be so fortunate to rise and save one from the grips of evil.

My endless attempts to pause, help and heal have fallen short of my desired result.  Am I too unfortunate in believing only a full turn from evil will mark my success?   Many wonderfully holy men and women planted fast growing positive seeds in me all through my life’s journey.  I have finally made the full turn.  It took years . . . I pray each day for the ability to keep my face toward God’s Holy Light.

My daily thoughts of hope, prayers, and meditation of unconditional love for  one very important young person in my life seems to be falling short..  This brings me great sadness, the same sadness my father endured many days of his life.   How am I to continue to love unconditionally?  I know in my heart, unconditional love brings unconditional love to me.  I love “her” so much, so I must continue to be positive. Everything happens for a reason, never by mistake in God’s world. 

Let us go out and decorate with God’s love.



There is a vast difference between the individual who gets drunk because he loves liquor and the one who does it because he hates or fears something else so much that he has to run away from it. The first becomes the drunkard, the second the alcoholic. The drunkard pursues the exhilaration of liquor; the alcoholic pursues the obliteration of memory. Very few men or women ever become alcoholics because they like alcohol: they become alcoholics because they – violently dislike something else

That is why, in some instances, the cure of alcoholism implies the facing of the very problem one is seeking to escape. And this procedure is impossible without self-knowledge. But Self knowledge is just the beginning of a long life of prayer & peace in the arms of God.

We work steps up towards a life of peace and contentment. This life will always materialize for those who need proof. For us who have an unimpeded path to Christ our lives are immediately transformed to serenity unfelt at any other time of life. On 111991 God lifted me from the insidious madness of abusers to a life of peace. His work was immediate, my “doubting Thomas” belief took 63 days. 11,263 days later I am at peace, share most of my time with Jesus Christ than the demons in my past. God has certainly done more for me than I have Ever Done for myself.

God bless



A dozen bottom feeder elitists can’t go on and on gnawing the same apple forever; that if the earth is a finite object, then its expanses and resources are finite also, and the endless, infinite progress dinned into our heads by the dreamers of the Enlightenment cannot be accomplished on it . . . All that ‘endless progress’ turned out to be an insane, ill-considered, furious dash into a blind alley. A civilization greedy for ‘perpetual progress’ has now choked and is on its last legs.

Our life consists not in the pursuit of material success but in the quest of worthy spiritual growth. Our entire earthly existence is but a transition stage in the movement toward something higher, and we must not stumble or fall, nor must be linger fruitless on one rung of the ladder . . . The laws of physics and physiology will never reveal the indisputable manner in which the Creator constantly, day in and day out, participates in the life of each of us, unfailingly granting us the energy of existence; when the assistance leaves us, we die. In the life of our entire planet, the Divine Spirit moves with no less force: this we must grasp in our dark and terrible hour.

James Grein
Jesus is my savior